Lonely

Sophie and I have been on our own for the past few days and feeling extremely lonely. Queenie and Lanie went out of town to visit a friend. I was looking forward to it at first and I thought Sophie would enjoy a break from Lanie, but just the opposite has occurred. I believe that Sophie really misses Queenie and I miss that canine dynamo named Lanie. The last few nights has put Sophie in an entirely foreign land of my apartment to sleep and spend most of her time. Today's weather didn't help. Stormy and rainy all day meant that we couldn't spend too much time outside. She keeps looking at me with her eyes imploring "what is going on?" This makes me feel the same emotion. Fortunately, they get back tomorrow.

To help Sophie feel as normal as possible I went to Feeder's to give her a bath. (something she really loves) She was long overdue for a bath. I take her to the vet tomorrow for her annual checkup and shots. I know I'm going to be told she needs to lose weight. Maybe she'll slip by.

Bye, Bye Birdie

It's official. Louisville Men's team lost today. The road to the final four is over for them. Looking at it from the Louisville side It sucked. They couldn't do anything right. I'd like to know what happened to the team that played Friday night. No fire, no drive, no one coming off the bench and giving them a "spark" to their play. I knew we were in trouble when T-Will wasn't having a good game.

Just hope the women's team, which is also in the elite eight doesn't play like their counterparts. I would love to see them get to the final four.

The Past

I guess by the time you reach the age of 55 you shouldn't be surprised that your past catches up to you. But I am surprised, floored would be a better word. I'm on Facebook mainly because of my high school alumni committee members. So far the only people that have asked me to be their friend have been former classmates...until today.

At first when I saw the name I was confused. I kept repeating the name asking myself "who in the hell is this". Then it hit me. OMG an ex girl friend from 25 years ago. A period in my life when I was young and stupid. Very stupid and quite frankly not all that young. I really should have been more secure and not so naive at the age of 30. Regardless, it was not a time in my life that I can look back on with fond memories.

I really should have ignored the request, but I didn't. I allowed the exchange to happen. She wants me to call sometime so we can catch up. ooooohhhhh boy. I'm going to regret this. Again.

Cards Win Big

Louisville Cardinals won impressively tonight in the first round of Regional Play. Beat Arizona 103 to 64. Sunday they play the winner of the Kansas/Michigan State game. Even though they won handedly in such a manner that some call a sleeper, I love when they win that way. No edge of your seat, you know they are going to win and you can mark your sheets early.

Queenie and I didn't go up on the hill to watch tonight's game, mainly because we wouldn't have been able to enjoy the game. Kids playing loudly would have been too much. Don't get me wrong, the kids should be able to play. My best friend in the world is raising a grandchild (2.5 years old) and the house can be caotic. I just wasn't in the mood to listen to it tonight.

Signs Of Spring

Spring means rebirth. Trees, shrubs, flowers and grass all coming back to life. Humans too are reborn. Spending time outside in the warmth of the sun after hybernating during the winter. This is my favorite time of the year. The promise of warmer weather. The promise of friends getting together and watching NCAA Tournament games, anxiously marking their brackets. The promise of green fairways, green greens, the posibility of actually making par, per chance a birdie!

I have wonderful neighbors who love to sit outside, watch the traffic, watch the dogs romp and play, and gossip about everyone we can think about.

Yes, spring is in the air and it can't get here soon enough. The warmth of the sun melting away that thick layer of winter gloom that always seems to settle on my body and psyche.

NCAA Tournament

As I've posted before I love this time of year because of the NCAA Tournament. Love watching the games. My team doesn't play until tomorrow night. My team is the University of Louisville. They play Morehead St, another Kentucky team. Can't wait to watch that. A few of my friends will throw parties just to watch the games.

I haven't felt well today, so it was nice to be able to lay back and watch the basketball action. Of course not feeling well meant that I didn't want to go outside very often and play with Lanie. Over all she and Sophie were pretty good in not bugging me to go out and when we did go out, were welling to come back in without a hassle.

GO CARDS!!!!

Brackets Are Out

Brackets came out this morning and I can't believe that UofL is the number one pick in the nation. Super. The play Friday in Dayton, Ohio against the winner of the Alabama St and Morehead St. I love to fill in the brackets for money. A guy at Queenie's work puts them on the computer and you can always go and check out how you are doing. Then it's time to sit back and watch the games and cheer teams on that you would normally never cheer for...lol. I love it!!!

Tournament Time/NCAA Brackets

Go Cards!!!! Even though I am an alumni of Indiana University, I am a huge Louisville Cardinal fan. This year has proved to be a good year for their basketball team. They won their conference title and then won the Conference Tournament last night.

I love this time of year. NCAA Tournament. I love filling out the brackets and watching as many games as I possibly can, marking my brackets accordingly. Cheer on teams that you normally won't cheer for because that's the way you've marked your bracket. (it could me a lot of money)

The underlying other reason for loving the NCAA Tournament is because it coincides with the beginning of spring. I really do hate winter, way to depressing time of the year. Spring speaks of warm weather to come, sunny days and staying outside with the girls, playing Frisbee with Lanie.

Just A Few of My Loved Ones

Lanie is really getting good at chasing down and catching a frisbee, even some of those that I don't throw well. I just love watching here. She loves her frisbee's and her balls and her babies (stuffed dog toys, especially the annoying ones that squeak). She definitely keeps me feeling young.

This picture was taken at her 1 year old birthday party in November. All her friends were there. All six of them. A good time was had by all, human and animal. They loved their birthday treat of Frosty Paws which is an ice cream for dogs. (disgusting really, but the dogs love it)

Spent part of today with my 89 year old mother while the primary care giver, my sister MJ got out of the house to do whatever she wanted. We call it Free Pass day for her. No agenda and no time table for when she needed to be back home. Mom is healthy and still able to move around a bit with a cane, but her mind is not sharp and she gets confused easily. Part of that is caused by hard of hearing. But her humor is always there and sharp as ever...lol. Her days consist of getting up, drinking her coffee, taking her morning pills, reading the paper, eventually eating breakfast (cereal) and then taking her shower. She will sit in her chair the rest of the time reading her books. As sad as it is to watch her grow old, the thought of her not being around forever terrifies me. My father passed away in 1996 from bone cancer, but I was never as close to her as I am my mother. Mom was always the strong one, the disciplinarian, the one you ran to. Never judgemental, but would always have an extremely wise way about her (not that I didn't always appreciate that trait). She is full of love and is always smiling.

Time To Get Serious

Second entry I figure I need to get serious. Need to try to tie my life in with the world. Oh my god, that is truly too deep for me....lol.

Today was full of errands for me and my so called ex. My ex lives in the apartment down stairs. We were together seven years when she decided she didn't think she was gay. I know what you might be thinking, "seems like it shouldn't have taken her that long to decide such a life altering thing." Outwardly, yes that is true. But...yes, there is always a but, Queenie (that will be my name for her) doesn't like confrontation and she is extremely guarded with her feelings, so even though I was hurt by her admission, it actually cleared a lot of things up for me. We had basically become just roommates over the span of the last few years together, but we both still cared a great deal for each other. I was her first woman lover and no, there was never a man in the equation for her. I respect that she finally came clean with me and we have moved on. Literally, even if I am in an apartment right upstairs from her. We share custody of two dogs. Lanie is hers, Sophie is mine. The "girls" stay the night downstairs with her since her apartment is bigger than mine (I have a studio apartment). We spend all our spare time together ususally and to our friends we appear to be together and we are in all aspects together except for physical contact.

I have not even tried to find someone else because I'm so comfortable with my life as it is. I'm 55 years old and dating for a lesbian at this age is difficult, but if someone fell into my lap, I wouldn't look the other way...lol.

Welcome to my Blog

Welcome to my blog. I'm new at this and feel just a little weird doing it. I thought that this might be good therapy, so what the hell. Laurla comes from a friends granddaughter that can't pronounce my name right just yet and it has caught on.

I am a somewhat single lesbian living in an apartment upstairs from my ex. We shave custody of two dogs. Lanie is really her's and Sophie is mine. Lanie is a one year old black lab and Sophie is an eight year old lab/chow mix. They or I should say Lanie, have a lot of energy that needs to be expended from time to time. That really means they need to get up on the Hill (a friends property) to run and romp and play with the other dogs, which include Maggie (our neighbors black lab) and Jinx (my friends sister and her partner's dog). Jinx and Lanie are really the only ones that romp and do a lot of running and wrestling with each other. A good time is had by all.

I've been laid off from my job since May of 2008 and still waiting to be recalled. Unemployment has been a life savior, but isn't nearly enough. Family has helped me stay a float. I have to admit I'm frustrated that I haven't been recalled yet and scared too. I need to work and during these economic times finding another job will be extremely difficult. So I am using this blog to blow off steam and vent my feelings.